First, the good news. We're up to sixty-seven wish lists published so far over in ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
wish_list. I just finished updating the Master list so if you'd like to take a look you can find it HERE. It makes me really happy to see the comm so active, spreading a little joy, and helping people connect with one another, is why it's there.
Keeping the list updated is about the only fannish thing I've had time for lately; I failed pretty miserably withmini_nanowrimo this year. With everything going on in rl I've had no time for me so that translates into no time to write or do any artwork. Once I've got mom settled for the night, and things have quietened down enough for me to have some time at the computer, I'm just too tired to write. One of the side-effects of a Lupus flare-up is exhaustion and it's been hitting me pretty hard with this one.
Plus, mom's sick. She's got a bad respiratory infection which has progressed to just this side of pneumonia. I took her to see her lung doc last week and we've got her on antibiotics and meds to thin out her secretions so the congestion is easier to cough up. Because of her illness she's had several fairly bad bouts with confusion the last couple of weeks. I can get her out of it over the course of the day but it's still pretty terrifying when it happens.
Which led right into the other thing; I failed at being strong the other day. I was helping her with her bath and I just started crying. We talked about things and got in some really good hugs but it was still hard. I love my mom so much, she truly has been one of my best friends all of my life. I know she's winding down, that I probably won't have her with me for much longer, and I'm just not ready. She loves this time of year, somehow I'll make sure this is a really good Christmas for her.
Between my and mom's illness I've had no time at work lately so things are really tight. Whether I have the energy or not I have to get things posted and sold over the next few weeks just to help us survive. I'm hoping I can get a lot done today if things go okay with mom.
Okay, I'm shutting up now so I can go and get her bathed. Thanks for listening. I promise, next time I post will be lighter. It sure helps just knowing that you guys are here to listen, though. More than I can ever say.
*hugs*
wish_list. I just finished updating the Master list so if you'd like to take a look you can find it HERE. It makes me really happy to see the comm so active, spreading a little joy, and helping people connect with one another, is why it's there.Keeping the list updated is about the only fannish thing I've had time for lately; I failed pretty miserably with
mini_nanowrimo this year. With everything going on in rl I've had no time for me so that translates into no time to write or do any artwork. Once I've got mom settled for the night, and things have quietened down enough for me to have some time at the computer, I'm just too tired to write. One of the side-effects of a Lupus flare-up is exhaustion and it's been hitting me pretty hard with this one.Plus, mom's sick. She's got a bad respiratory infection which has progressed to just this side of pneumonia. I took her to see her lung doc last week and we've got her on antibiotics and meds to thin out her secretions so the congestion is easier to cough up. Because of her illness she's had several fairly bad bouts with confusion the last couple of weeks. I can get her out of it over the course of the day but it's still pretty terrifying when it happens.
Which led right into the other thing; I failed at being strong the other day. I was helping her with her bath and I just started crying. We talked about things and got in some really good hugs but it was still hard. I love my mom so much, she truly has been one of my best friends all of my life. I know she's winding down, that I probably won't have her with me for much longer, and I'm just not ready. She loves this time of year, somehow I'll make sure this is a really good Christmas for her.
Between my and mom's illness I've had no time at work lately so things are really tight. Whether I have the energy or not I have to get things posted and sold over the next few weeks just to help us survive. I'm hoping I can get a lot done today if things go okay with mom.
Okay, I'm shutting up now so I can go and get her bathed. Thanks for listening. I promise, next time I post will be lighter. It sure helps just knowing that you guys are here to listen, though. More than I can ever say.
*hugs*
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